Depression · idontwantyoutodie · nonjudgmental · Signs and Indicators · suicide · Suicide Prevention · Talking about Suicide

 Why?

Worthlessness Hopeless Burden Internal spiritual pain (constant Hell) Helpless Tired of life/exhausted No joy Financially overwhelmed Emotionally overwhelmed Numb Spite Revenge Making a statement Fury Desperation ... I have tried to find a way that this could actually be made into a discussion board but it does not seem possible! If you can add more… Continue reading  Why?

Depression · Hope · idontwantyoutodie · Signs and Indicators · suicide · Suicide Prevention · Talking about Suicide

The Game

It's never easy talking about things that make us look weak in others' eyes.  Like suicide, like depression - we know it is seen as ' not coping' so we say nothing.  Saying nothing means nothing can change.  The same negative thoughts, the same repetitive hate talk, the same triggers to feeling overwhelmed don't go… Continue reading The Game

Depression · grief · Hope · idontwantyoutodie · loss · nonjudgmental · Signs and Indicators · Soul · suicide · Suicide Prevention · Talking about Suicide

OK, I’ll Open My Big Mouth First…

Like I mentioned in a previous post, it's not easy talking about suicide - especially if you are directly involved on either end of that very sharp stick.  I have been on both and a lot of splinters in between.  I said it was time to talk about suicide and all of its branches that… Continue reading OK, I’ll Open My Big Mouth First…

Depression · idontwantyoutodie · suicide · Suicide Prevention · Talking about Suicide

Attempt # 1 Method (s)

I remember sitting on the edge of my parents double bed upstairs.  I had a little pearl handled gun in my lap.  I was sobbing my heart out.  I truly felt worthless, unwanted, damaged and broken.  I was sad that I would miss all of my family and hurt them but I didn't want to… Continue reading Attempt # 1 Method (s)

Suicide Prevention

Attempt #1 – Method and Madness (Firstly the madness that led me there)

When I got away from the place where I had been raped, I walked home.  I had my horse with me but I couldn't ride him.  I just stumbled my way home through snot and tears.  My horse kept nudging me as he had never seen me like this.  I can't explain fully what was… Continue reading Attempt #1 – Method and Madness (Firstly the madness that led me there)